I'm back from vacation. It was exhausting for someone fighting my battles. I got a little more tired each day. The first night I was up until about midnight because we had a meet and greet at a local bar. I don't drink, so I had a coke, but I got to see people I haven't seen in 30 years (some I hadn't seen in 10 or 20 if they showed up at the other reunions). The second night I didn't get to bed until probably 1 AM or so, because we had a dinner/dance. The next night was an easy one, because we went to a local winery and it broke up about 3:30 PM, so we relaxed around the hotel and I went to bed about 10 PM. The next day was a 12 hour drive home, but I slept most of the way. My sleeping caused my husband to make a wrong turn and we ended up with a 12 hour drive instead of 10....one hour backtracking, then another backtracking the backtracking. Love those confusing on/off ramps in Arkansas.
All things considered, I think the Laetrile made me less tired than I would have been. But because I wasn't spending half my day in my recliner with my feet up, my ankles swelled up, as well as my bad arm. It will be nice to take it easy for a while.
My mom is a retired nurse (can you say brainwashed by the AMA?) and doesn't approve of my decision of treatment. She believes doctors have our best interest at heart. I think most doctors want to do what's best for the patient, but just don't have all the information. I think Big Pharma has done a bang up job of hiding the facts and twisting statistics to make this seem like quackery. I'm going to go on how I FEEL, which is great. I didn't get to eat my lentils every day while I was on vacation, but I can get back into that. I'm doing so well, I'm considering taking 2 pills a day. I went to the website of the place I bought the Laetrile from, and they sell it in 100 mg and 500 mg doses. I suppose the 100 mg dose is a maintenance dose, while the higher is for active cancer. I figure it can't hurt to take 200 mg, since they sell it in such a high dose.
I received my meds that my doctor ordered. The pharmacy called right before we left and said they couldn't accept them, but had to have them shipped to a different store that did "specialized care." They came in a chemotherapy bag with lots of warnings. They want me to take 5 tablets that are 250 mg each, once a day an hour before or after a meal. That sounds like chemotherapy to me, and I'm not doing it. I am supposed to have an appointment with my new doctor and I'll discuss it with him. I'm NOT taking chemo again. I want to stay feeling well, not sick all the time.
I actually don't see that extending my life by a few months is of any benefit if I'm unable to get out of my chair and do my work around the house or take care of myself. I'd prefer to take care of myself, my house and my family, even if it means for a few months less time. From the research I've found, chemo only extends the "life" a little bit. Eating right and doing alternative therapies may only extend the life a bit, but it's more of a life. I would actually prefer doing nothing over taking chemo again.
I guess we'll see what the new doctor thinks. I will tell him I'm taking Laetrile. We'll see what he says. He is, after all, from Columbia.
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